The Reality of Abundance

The Reality of Abundance

I feel as though Deepak may have stolen this from my journal last night, but I don't like to go around making accusations.

Email today from Deepak Choprah's Day 1 of my 21-Day Meditation Challenge:

The Reality of Abundance

Oh how often we forget to recognize, or perhaps we confuse, the reality of abundance.

I bet many of us believe we do not live an abundant life. We are struggling financially. We still have student loan debt. We can't afford the new designer purse. Our neighbor has a better job than us. We are suffering from a physical or mental challenge. We are limited.

I suffer from many of these thoughts. Actually, a few months ago I had this conversation with a friend of mine. After I told her many of my dreams in life, she asked me, "how possible do you believe it will be for you to achieve that?" That was when my reality set in.

She sensed my self-doubt. She sensed my sense of undeserving-ness. She sensed my senselessness.

 I did not believe in an abundant life.

Oh, what a beautiful awakening I had this weekend and this morning about the reality of abundance.

I am so, so, so, so, SO....
....
Did I say so?
...so, lucky for all of the amazing people I have in my life.


Yesterday was my birthday and I felt so blessed for the notes, messages, calls, gestures and gifts from people all over the world, that I could not contain my tears and retreated to my bedroom for many moments during the day to try to fix my mascara beneath flooded tear ducts.

Eventually, I surrendered and stopped re-applying.

Of all the ways in which I was blessed this week, weekend, yesterday, and today, I cannot decide which was the best. I cannot even name top 5. But here is an attempt:

1. Today, I can book Saul & Fidel's trip to New York for Christmas. I say that with the biggest smile on my face. Thanks to the amazing generosity of family & friends, I can afford at least the flights.

2. One of my friends from El Salvador visited my community with a video camera and took a video of all my loved ones, my home, my precious perro, and the lovely earth that I walked upon for 2 years. He  informed me that my house is just as I left it, the wooden table is still in the corner and all the drawings & quotes I had posted upon the wall are still up (except for the one he took down and stole for himself). He reminded me of this Dave Mathews quote that I had posted above my pillow:

Pick Me Up Love Everyday.

(I love that line and I love that song and I love the smile I wear when I shut my eyes and picture myself waking up at 5am, and reaching over to my iPod and turning on that music...)

3. Saul wrote me an amazing letter about our friendship and about his new quest to learn photography. He even attached some of his amazing photos. So heart felt, so Saul, and so the reason I cannot wait for him to see NYC! (Another blog to come about Saul & Fidel shortly)

4. My Mom & Dad each wrote me a lovely letter (which I don't dare to open again while wearing makeup) and each of my sister's called (if in NY or MD) or wrote (if in Hong Kong). Amanda texted me at 12:02am...but Danielle wrote the day before (but she had time zone in her favor) so I'm not sure who wins. I guess I'll just give it to Christina. Even Grams called me 2 days early (albeit to say Happy Birthday to Amanda), but I appreciated that anyway.

5. My best friends gave me a 3-day extravaganza of food and drinks that I am still recovering from, but love dearly for taking me under their wings these past few (can it be 6 now?) months. I am still pondering ways to repay them.

On top of all that, Ninia Doris, Nena (Karyme & Lili) and Mirna (my besties from ES) each called or texted me and so many others from ES sent me emails or facebook notes. I still remember last year when Nena texted me at midnight :)

On tippie-top of all that, I had so many messages from people of all parts of the world and of people who used to know me or want to know me or don't really know me - but those who shared the most sweetest things.

It is people that keep me inspired and if it wasn't for all of the support I have in my life, I quite possibly would be a regular old Alice in Wonderland.

You reassure me that I am sane. That this is reality. And that reality is abundant.

Thank you ALL (the names are running through my head as I say this) for your love and support in my life and don't think for one second that you may be one I have forgotten.

I feel like it's time to say "God is love, Rev Run", although I may have confused my presence here...

Let's try this:

Love is abundant. Abundant is love. 
Namaste.